When

i can't wait for
when i am older and have homework
therefore i will not have to wash dinner dishes

when high school is over
i will be appreciated for my mind
and boys will finally like me

when the semester is over...
when i graduate...
when i get a job...
when he asks me to marry him...
when i get a job i like...
when we move to nh...
when i can afford to buy clothes at the mall...
when i go to india...
when i get to leave india...
when we move out of this awful house...
when he is a doctor...
when it stops raining...
when i weigh 150 pounds...
(even though I used to lie on my license
and say I weighed just 165)
when life settles down just a little...
when this run is over...
when i get pregnant...
when it is five o'clock...
when we get some rain...
when dinner is ready...
when it is the weekend...

Waiting for when is like waiting for Godot.
He is NEVER coming!
             or
He is omnipresent.

The Past

My first post here, is (are) an old post(s).  For various reasons, mainly the really rude albeit computer generated comments I was receiving, I am ending my old blog and starting this new one.  However, I don't want to totally dismiss the past even though my new quest is to be in the present (see future blog post), so below is a link to my past...blog.

Thoughts from when I was running forward...